The serious conviction of God's upward calling

My understanding of God's upward calling encompasses a perspective of knowing no one according the the flesh. That means i think in terms of born again or child of disobedience. I have prayed that the Lord would give me His heart for lost souls..and so the scales have been removed from my eyes and all that I see is God's wrath coming upon the children of disobedience who revel in the daylight. I absolutely cannot sit in a pew when the gospel is the power of God unto salvation...and how shall they hear without a preacher! The harvest is plentiful..and i'm even comforted knowing that it's impossible for me to save a single soul..but rather i'm to preach Christ crucified...and He can make it grow if He wills. For God has mercy upon whom He wills. I love Him!! I shall proclaim with a loud voice like the angel in the book of revelation..fear God and give Him glory! For this gospel is the everlasting gospel. Preach it until your dying breath.